2nd in the nation

of Ireland! hehe. Yes, in the nation I am ranked second on 1 and 3 meter. However, they are particular about medals and stuff so I was left out of the medal ceremony. (The girl who got first is a Ukrainian National diver living here in Ireland for the past 6 years.) Diving hasn't been around very long and so they made a decision to reward the Irish divers instead of the best divers in the country. I think eventually they will learn. I'm happy enough though, no medals needed.

UK Diving Nationals this weekend!

Its been a rough, tough week for me for many many reasons but now I'm getting ready to do my best in Nationals this weekend. I'll be diving as a guest competitor and its going to be tougher competition then the master's wc but as the Irish philosophy goes its really all about having fun! haha, yeah...right Kelly...right. Well, think good thoughts for me!

More pics from the masters world championships

This is me winning the 1m w/ the British & Italian divers 2nd & 3rd

My favorite diving picture probably ever

and we're back!

finally we have wireless internet at the new apartment! i cannot tell you how isolated i've been feeling lately just because i haven't been able to connect at home. (i think there may be something very wrong with that last sentence, like i might need to be going to talk to someone kind of wrong, but anyways that's the truth and i said it.) i actually found it quite difficult to study without being connected which was the main draw back besides not being able to talk to everyone i was missing (the part making me the most sad and isolated feeling). any time i needed to look up something it took ages finding the right book, page, etc. and then how many times was it really not was i was needing. gah that was frustrating and this is especially the case now since we are dealing with pathology which means lots of different kinds of bacteria, viruses and fungi that have crazy names, diseases, symptoms and all that. hopefully this also means keeping up on this thing a lot more often...oh, and there's also my whole addiction to imdb which i'm not quite sure how i've been living without. but yeah. this is good news, very very good news.

its 1:15am

and I'm going to sleep for the first night in my new apartment! I am tired. It took all day to move today. Packing, getting everything downstairs and cleaning up the old place, making the move and then getting it all in my room. The place is super nice with a big balcony that overlooks the park and is walking distance to the hospital which is key. I'm in the middle room (between greg and andrew) and I have a huge window which I love. I am sharing a bathroom with greg which is much better than last year when we had just one bathroom for the four of us. Anyways, I promise I'll put up pictures soon which will be much better than trying to write about it. And, like I said, I'm tired.

Other than that, I just miss home a lot. Like a lot a lot. But I hope that once I feel more settled things will start getting better.

First day of school

You know how it goes. You get all ready the night before, you eat a good breakfast, you get there on time (even a little bit early which is awesome in Ireland cuz everyone gives you free tea!), you sit front and center and pay attention the whole lecture, then you come home and outline all the lectures before you go to bed. Well that was my oh so perfect first day of school. The only thing that sucks is...well...I'm back in school and not only that but I'm also super far away from my loves: sun, surf, and c.

I guess this just means I'll be back writing my blog which I was on a bit of a hiatus from during the past two months while I was at the beach getting amazing at surfing and working on an awesome tan. I miss home like never before and I am gonna start counting the days till Christmas break absurdly early I believe. This year will be exciting and fun as far as school goes though to tell you guys the truth. We are doing rotations all the time in the hospital, getting to go around and observe any procedures we want, watching post mortem, and basically finding out the stuff that can go wrong and learn real doctory-type stuff finally which is a definite yay!

ahhhhhh

I'm home and the sun sure feels good...

Might take me a little while longer before I feel like writing again. For the moment I'm just way too busy doing absolutely nothing! Well, thats not true exactly. I'm just busy doing all the stuff that I missed so very much. Surfing and the beach, going out to eat all my favorite foods with friends I haven't seen in forever, reading any book I want, laying in the sun, drinking wine and watching movies, and of course sleeping. Actually, as far as sleeping goes, I've now gotten into the routine of going to bed by 10 and waking up at 7 which means that I have all the sunlight I could ask for and as little darkness as possible, which, if I'm trying to fend off rickets from my sun-deprived little body, is a very good thing :)

last one!!!

My last official final (I know it seems like they never end!) is tomorrow morning at 10 AM. Its my first exam with an actual patient and I can't wait. By 10:30 I'll be done and out of the hospital, finishing up everything I need to at the house to finally come home! I am so happy. I can't wait to catch up with everyone and be free for the next 2 months, yippie! If all goes as it should with my flight I'll be home Saturday at 6PM San Diego time.

Think good thoughts for me :)

this is it

The last week!!!! I have so much to do before I come home but I can hardly believe that no matter what I will be on that plane Saturday morning and on my way home. I'm sure people are are getting rather annoyed at me for reminding them of exactly how long it is till I'm out here but as Eoghan said yesterday upon stepping outside, "this place is pissing me off"...and well, he's a dubliner so I don't feel to bad about me feeling this way. I think in all my wining about needing this break, and my free time spent showing pictures of home and looking up my favorite places on google earth (which can sometimes bring me to tears if you can believe it) I also may have convinced at least a few people to visit San Diego at some point. This is not too difficult as the point I'm trying to make here is that it has rained for most of the month of June and July doesn't look too promising either. There's something about having to bring a coat and umbrella out with you on a Saturday afternoon in July that is just wrong.

Yesterday we went to Kilmainham Jail which is the jail where the leaders of the 1916 revolution were executed. It was my first sightseeing activity that I've done in Dublin in quite a long time. 4 of us (me, Greg, Megan and Eoghan) took the bus out there and got the tour. It was cool to see since all of us recognized the place from movies (Michael Collins, In The Name Of The Father) and if you haven't seen those it definitely reminded me of The Green Mile. If you want to go when you come visit, I'd defintely be willing to go again :) I just hope that we get a different tour guide than the one we had. When we left Greg and I had a rather pointless discussion/arguement (which we often do) about which word she she used more: "jail" or "here". My vote was for "here" and anyways, since we were in a jail I feel she can say that word just about as many times as she wants. (right greg!) ;)

Anyways, just gonna get my pack on and sort out what I am bring home and what I am hiding around my house. I might even ask Andrew to take a box my really special, I would die if they got taken by my subletter, things to his parents house but we'll see. Can't wait to be home finally. Its been SO incredibly long!

Lisa came to visit!

I almost forgot to mention that last weekend Lisa was here to see me. It was a fast but fantastic visit but you can see that for yourself...love you lis and thanks for stopping by! :)

sharing a pint

my royal college in the back there

at a cricket match

fun and excitement at trinity college

Lots of firsts

I can barely believe how many firsts I had this week. So many in fact that to remember them I thought I'd make a list:

First time taking blood from a patient (time 3 and 4 were flawless!)...oh and yay for being useful!

First time giving a talk (presenting at surgical grand rounds) and first time using powerpoint

First time on-call, spending the night in the hospital and getting bleeped (paged)!

First time taking a real patient's history entirely on my own, presenting the history and getting all the differentials right. :)

Well, those were the big ones although there were lots of little ones in between. I really liked neurosurgery. I loved how everyday I was watching and being apart of someone literally saving another person's life. Sometimes that just means giving them more time to enjoy their time here with us all. But there's something that amazes me about how truly beautiful that is. And they do it every day, sacrificing themselves, making every effort to be perfect for complete strangers without wanting or needing even any thanks in return. Its exactly what I want to be apart of. I feel like I just fit in somewhere finally and even with all the hard work and practically no free time, I finally feel like its a place I'm entirely happy being entirely on my own. I fall asleep not needing anything or with the feeling that something is missing. Somehow, somewhere that feeling just disappeared. It gives me shivers. This is it.

On-call

So I decided to stay on-call tonight in neurosurgery at the hospital. I must be crazy, is the response I'm getting most. It sorta started as just a suggestion from one of the consultants and then with the idea in my head, my curiosity has gotten the best of me and against most people's recommendations I decided to try it out just to see what would happen.

Ok, so at first, nothing. The Reg (resident on call for everyone at home) is awesome. He is great at teaching and absolutely loves it. I love getting quizzed on anatomy, mostly because they seem so impressed probably but its fun too. And I love looking at CT scans of the brain now. Its like a little puzzle that you have to figure out...or more like a find whats wrong with the picture. Its the kind of games I would get sent by my grandmother and I've always loved them. And the best part is I'm getting better at it...much much better.

Then there was a car accident and a guy with a fractured skull is on his way to the hospital from another hospital in Ireland. (oh I forgot to mention that Beaumont where I am is the neurosurgical center for all of Ireland. So anything that happens in the entire country gets referred here since all of the neurosurgeons are only here in this one hospital in Dublin.) So, I was given a pager (called a "bleep" here) and the reg is gonna bleep me when they get here in an hour or so. That should give me time to take a quick nap on the couch before everything starts happening. I'll write more over the weekend probably...
cheers from beaumont hospital,
kelly

Week 1

I'm too exhausted to describe exactly how amazing being at the hospital this week was so you are just going to have to take my word for it and wait until I can build my strength back up this weekend so that I can write all about it. Actually, I'll do a quick little bit now as a preview...Neurosurgery is incredible. I've seen doctors actually save lives right in front of me and most of the day I spend in awe, wondering how could I ever possibly even come close to knowing a fraction of what they do. It really doesn't surprise me now that neurosurgeons have the whole God complex. I mean after a 4 hour spinal surgery to remove a tumor the size of the head of a pin from a patient's spinal cord just below their brain stem, the removal of an aggressive CSF producing tumor in the middle of a 3 month old child's brain or saving a 6 year old from a blood clot after a fall on their bicycle, I seriously have no doubt that they would think anything less of themselves.

But I'm still super excited about having my weekend too :). Tomorrow Lisa literally drops in on me for her 8 hour lay over on her way to Spain and we are going to see the 'sights' in Dublin. I'm going to bed early since I've been up at 5 or 6 am and not getting home till about 9 every night this week and could use the extra sleep. I really hope its nice tomorrow. Drinking out in the sun on the Trinity green just won't be the same if it isn't!

Cheers!

...cuz this is how i feel right now. many more pictures to come!

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I'M DONE and I'm not gonna move out of bed for the next 5 hours!!! Then I will consider going to rock climbing and out drinking for the night. But now I'm laying here and smiling without having to move to do anything! I love this feeling. I can't believe that I am actually done with my first year. I can finally breath and right now (again) I don't HAVE to the do anything which is the most amazing thing I can think of. Ah, Greg just got home and he's done. Me and Andrew were in the first group of OSCEs (which is the clinical examination and history taking that was our last exam) so we were done first...then Greg...and then Maeve. I don't know if I have the energy to go downstairs and talk to him about it even. All I know is that mine went really really well. Last semester I came home crying so this time I think I nailed it cuz I just feel happy, smiling and happy. Ridiculous that I'm this happy so I must have done well...well at least not worried about failing. Yay!

Ok, so now 3 and a half weeks in the hospital. So far as I can tell I'll be with a professor of neurosurgery (yay for brain surgery!!!) for half and a doctor of geriatrics for the other half (yay for old people!). Oh man, I can not wait! I wish you people were up so that I could call someone and just scream into the phone that I am done and laugh and finally be happy!

Much love for all of your faith in me. I needed it, I really did :)

the path

A friend recently told me that my writing on this thing is boring and really not worth their time reading. It hurt me to hear that but I know that they are right. Even though it it might be tough I have always wanted my friends to be honest with me so, with no hard feelings, I'm taking full responsibility for all the boring stuff that I write about in my day-to-day life and moving on. This is my life and the way that its going at the moment is really really dull and uninteresting. However, whether its boring or exciting, I'm writing this blog to tell people what its like for me here. Medical school finals are long and boring for anyone that isn't me and for me they are the torture required for things to happen in my life that are amazingly exciting and unbelievably eventful. I'm suffering through the seemingly endless hours of studying and sitting through horrifically long and tedious exams that make you want to pull your hair out or hide in your room under the covers until the torture is over. So, these mind-numbing, practically never leave the house days of studying followed by full days full of rest required to recover are the payment required to get to the excitement that will eventually come to pass. And whether you wait it out till the exciting bits or follow me along the entire road is up to you. But this is what it takes for me to make it and as much as I complain or worry or anything, I truly do love every second-- the struggle, the pain and the sweetness of the rewards that are coming. I'm out here on my own but I know I couldn't do it on my own and I know sometimes we both might just have to grin and bear it.

to update

So I went running. It was awesome. So glad I did. It started raining about half way through and felt great. Took a shower and now I'm all ready for some BBQ. (Luckily it stopped raining.)
I'm so close to being done :)

Have a great weekend everyone!

I think I just really need to do...well...nothing

Today has been a sorta tough, but on the relaxing side, of a day. I woke up, not being able to sleep anymore because of a crushing headache, but still so incredibly exhausted from the let down after finals. Its making me feel even more tired and a little sick feeling too so all I want to do is stay in bed with the curtain closed massaging my temples. Its the same headache that has been plaguing me on and off for the past week now. I know I still need more practice for my clinical exam on Monday but I definitely don't feel like it and not only that but its keeping me from being able to go out on my usual daily jogs which is really rough on me. I just want it to go away and leave me alone but I have a feeling its not going to until all of this is over for good. I just can't wait for Monday morning at 9AM. It going to be fantastic to be released from all the stress I am carrying around at the moment. There's a big bbq that everyone is going to tonight and I want to be able to make that. Hopefully a nap right now will help. Maybe I just really need a lazy day like this to reset myself after all of the craziness and hopefully tomorrow I'll feel more like my usual self.

Some good news however. I was finally able to find my own apex beat which was exciting. And if you don't know what that is don't worry...I'll be checking yours out when I get home oh so very soon!